I Am Extremely Stupid. I Realise That.

"..it's like a dream,
although I'm not asleep,
I never want to wake up.."

Dear lonely isle,

Sweet mother of Jesus (aka oh fucking lord), what the hell did I just do??????

What was I thinking? *banging head on wall*
I didn't think I was thinking..

Okay, what did I think I was doing? *bangs head even harder*
Following my heart..

Oh no, what have I done? *trying to kick self in the head*
Condemned myself..

Sometimes I think I have an extremely dumb heart. It's not very good at making decisions..
Worse still, it does what it wants all the time, without regard to the consequences tomorrow might bring.
Anyway, the damage is done, so I'll just sit back and wait for the casualty bill, and watch the disasters pile up...

Good god, if you do exist, spare me the heartache this time k?

love, joyce.