Sunday, September 25, 2005

Wake Me Up...5 Minutes Later

"..summer has gone and past,
the innocent can never last,
wake me up when September ends.."

Dear lonely isle,

Last night I had a nice dream... ^.^
Got up a few times but thank god was able to continue it! Oh yeah, one of those dreams where everything goes weirdly wrong but ends up all right somehow. And if you get to get the guy in the end, so much the sweeter!
Hospitals, chlorophyll, nun's clothing, dangerous situations, Ms. Goh, teh tarik with too much milk, how STPM is not going to go away, and general all round gum chewing, it's all in a night's work for your average dreamer =P
It's very disturbing how your last thoughts before you fall asleep are transcribed into your dreams, like say, how many days more you have to STPM, and how little you are doing about it.
And just like in real life, my mum asks in my dream about my studies and what am I planning to do with the monstrosity known as STPM and feared by all sixth formers.
And once again, as in real life, I sidestep the question.
The dream the night before was pretty eventful too. That one centred around secret agents, their hiring service, and plenty of base bombing as well as adrenaline-pumped car chased scenes. Not to mention an all out war in the national library (which looks nothing like ours). Who knew bookshelf climbing can be so much fun? =)

It has been awhile since I had so much fun in my dreams. ;P

love, joyce.

Wednesday, September 21, 2005


"..bertemu dan perpisahan,
adat manusia biasa,
hilang di mata tapi di hati takkan lupa.."

Dear lonely isle,

Oh my, not again.
Yes, I'm going to the same event again...make that my third year running =P
What makes every year memorable is I always end up going against my will.
But I did have fun the last two years, so hopefully this year will be better. Though secretly, I hope the last year was better. I wonder why? *wink*
Anyway, unlike last year, I have the chance to pick out what I want to wear. (Last year, I grabbed the first thing I saw in the cupboard, which happened to be the dress I wore the year before =P )
And sometimes maybe grabbing the first thing you see is better. Ah me, fickle minded me, can never decide on things like this.
Black? Or red?
Well, they never said life was easy...

Or something like that.

love, joyce.

Saturday, September 17, 2005

Other Side

"..all my dreams,
it's never quite as it seems,
cos' you're a dream to me.."

Dear lonely isle,

We live and we learn.
Today I read a post on dreams. And unlike my thoughts about the darker side of dreams, this one sheds light on the hope of dreams. Hopes that I have long ago decided to abandon.
Hope is a dying wish unfulfilled.
I still think so, but perhaps now I have seen the other side of the mirror. And how our dreams can inspire us, no just leading us through yet another unfulfilled fantasy in the head. Not just another nightmare to wake up into, but an inspiration to wake up from.
I've always thought of dreams as what might have been, and yes, it's true. Nothing ever happens like you wish it to, but then again, perhaps it's all for the best.
My, my. Aren't we being positive today?
Positive dreams? Maybe positive is just a point of view. How dreams become positive aspects in life is just perhaps a play on the lighting.
Adjusting the lighting in my dreams. Something I have yet to discover. Or maybe I should just fire the technician controllling the lights.

Ah well. We live.

And we learn.

love, joyce.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

~ satoshi & daisuke ~ Posted by Picasa

~Pink! Posted by Picasa

Trying To Regret...A Little Less...

"..we all begin with good intent,
love was raw and young,
we believe we could change ourselves,
the past could be undone.."

Dear lonely isle,

Why is it that we never ever learn?
Why is it that I never learn?
Slow learner I guess.
But I've got to realise it one day, right?

No sense in making the same mistakes again, eh?

love, joyce.

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

~ Satoshi ~ ^.^ Posted by Picasa

Happy Happy Day ^.^

Thanks people!!
I had a great day today!!
You could say I'm in a super good mood ;)
Anyway I just wanted to say thsnk you for all the wonderful presents!! =)
Oh yes, I'm looking a bit nuts today wearing everything around the house. =P
Thanks for remembering!!
And thank you even more for the presents!! *hehe*
I love them all (for those who wish to have them back, I'm so sorry but I'm going to have to keep them ;P)
And yes, I like the boxes and wrappers too ^.^
As many have told me today, 18 means a lot of things.
It's the age to be legal to do all sorts of stuff. Like drinking, for example.
Or like what I told my cousin, for smoking, drinking and having sex. ;P
Newfound freedom aside, it's been a really nice day.

And for that I've got all you people to thank!!

love, joyce.

Monday, September 12, 2005

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Don't. Please.

"..don't speak,
don't tell me,
because it hurts.."

Dear lonely isle,

I don't want to know.
I don't want to hear.
I don't want to care.
I feel it closing in from all sides.
There's no where to run.
I can't breathe.
I cannot be.

Just don't.
Don't tell me.
Don't speak.

Worry on your own time.
I have worries of my own.

I'm scared.
I'm really scared.

I just want to be alone.
I don't need to hear anything.
I don't want to hear anything.

There's only two words I want to hear.
But no one ever says it.

So just don't.
Don't speak.

It's not what I need to hear.

love, joyce.

Saturday, September 10, 2005

Lots Of Awwws....

Dear lonely isle,

I just love DNAngel.

love, joyce.

Friday, September 09, 2005

Tol Eressea
~The Lonely Isle~
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What A Wonderful World

"..I see skies of smoke,
ashes of white,
the long bloody days,
the dark cold nights,
and I think to myself,
what a wonderful world.."

Dear lonely isle,

With so many people in the world today, it's not surprising that suicide rates go up. We've come a long way since the dark ages. We've combated diseases, epidemics, plagues, and most of the time, each other.
Really, mortality rates are decreasing, and people start living longer, better, and healthier. At the rate we're going, it's going to get a little crowded soon.
Now there's a new way to keep us booming mankind in check I suppose.
Because we longer wage war on the battle field, we wage wars within us. Depression, mental stress, psychological illnesses, and the incurable - AIDS. We wage wars against famine, and starvation of the poorer nations. We deal with the global crisis of bankrupted nations. And of course, who could forget the demons in our heads? The ones that ultimatedly created what is known nowadays as terrorism.
All for the same reasons, we are doing what can be a more civilised way of making war. We take a bunch of people, fill their heads with ideas, and send them out to terrorise the world. That's ambition.
Stubborn-headedness, sheer imbecility, outright greed and selfishness. The very same agents that made us barbarians are back donning suits and ties, living fancy lives and basically having a whole new modern exterior. But that don't fool us. It's all still the same on the inside.
Or are we fooled?
On and on we go, in circles and loops and really just another round around the mulberry bush, we dance in the mistakes of our forefathers. We've shedded the more outrageous clothing yes, but we're still doing the same tango. We let pride, stupidity and egos rule our heads and move the body around. Sure there's all that women liberty and all, but what we actually did was let them join in the fun. Sure, of course you can have rights. Pick up some guns and step this way ladies.
Maybe because hell hath no fury like a woman scorned. And to be really twisted, you got to need a mind of woman.
But all in all, something's got to keep mankind in check. Might as well be us ourselves.

Only because I'd hate to think of anything else doing the accounting.

love, joyce.

Are you afraid of the Dark? ^.^ Posted by Picasa

More DNAngel...please? Posted by Picasa

Sigh...some things are easy to get addicted to... Posted by Picasa

Tol Eressea

"..and all will turn,
to silver glass,
a light on the water,
grey ships pass into the west.."

Dear lonely isle,

Don't you feel lonely sometimes?
Sometimes it just hurts I guess.

love, joyce.

Wednesday, September 07, 2005


" me love me,
say that you love me,
fool me fool me,
go on and fool me.."

Dear lonely isle,

There are many kinds of people in this world. But sometimes, the line divides it into two simple worlds.
The loved, and the unloved.
But how do we really know which side we belong on?
And for that matter, does anyone actually belong to the side under the heading 'unloved'?
Perhaps we like to think we do. Perhaps it's because of that one love you didn't get, the one love you couldn't get, you immediately hop on to the shelf marked 'unloved'.
But are we truly unloved?
Is there one person in the world, who is truly and utterly despised by all, that none should feel even the littlest bit of love for him?
But we all have our days. Days when we feel that world has turned it's back on us and left us with an amazing view of its behind. When all hope is lost, and we sink into the sorrowful pits of feeling 'unloved'.
Sometimes, blinded by foolish emotions and thoughts, we seek to hurt ourselves in ways to be noticed, maybe even acknowledged. But at the end of the day, the people who hurt the most is us. Deep inside. Where nobody sees. And maybe nobody knows.
And usually we're wrong. Because there's always a somebody who knows. Even if we don't know that somebody yet.
But days come, and days go. Even the longest days end. And even after the longest nights, the sun will still rise come dawn.
So am I loved? Or unloved?

Maybe tonight, just for tonight, I want to believe in the latter.

love, joyce.

Sunday, September 04, 2005

fool me fool me, go on and fool me.. Posted by Picasa

love me love me, say that you love me.. Posted by Picasa

beautiful day ^.^ Posted by Picasa


"..what ever will be will be,
the future's not ours to see.."

Dear lonely isle,
  • Please forgive me for I have sinned.
  • I went to Mid Valley today and bought a pair of heels...
  • When I should have been at home revising my biology...
  • Did you know it's only 2 months to STPM?
  • I am doomed...
  • I really don't know how to pull this one off.
  • And I can't do my usual intensive stuff, I've got to last for almost 3 months.
  • Any longer than a week I'll probably pass out due to lack of sleep.
  • So nope. Not that way.
  • I'm in trouble?
  • Oh yes.
  • I really should start getting scared now.
  • You know what?
  • I am.
Dammit dammit dammit.

love, joyce.

Friday, September 02, 2005

Syaoran & Sakura...can they get any sweeter?? Posted by Picasa

Tsubasa it! ^.^ Posted by Picasa

been putting this off too long...time to crash ^.^ Posted by Picasa


In a moment, everything can change
feel the wind on your shoulders
for a minute, all the world can wait
let go of your yesterday

can you hear it calling?
can you feel it in your soul?
can you trust this longing?
and take control

open up the part of you that wants to hide away
you can shine
forget about the reasons why you can't in life
and start to try
cause it's your time
time to fly

all you worries, leave them somewhere else
find the dream you can follow
reach for something when there's nothing left
and the world's feeling hollow

can you hear it calling?
can you feel it in your soul?
can you trust this longing?
and take control

open up the part of you that wants to hide away
you can shine
forget about the reasons why you can't in life
and start to try
cause it's your time
time to fly

and when you're down and feel alone
just wanna run away
trust yourself and don't give up
you know you're better than anyone else

in a moment, everything can change
feel the wind on your shoulders
for a minute all the world can wait
let go of your yesterday.

Hillary Duff


Dear lonely isle,

Let's go flying.

love, joyce.