Dear lonely isle,
On 26th December 2007, I went for a trip to Port Dickson with Ziggy. We stayed at Avillion.
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
PD trip
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Thursday, November 15, 2007
No. 59, Lorong Raja Udang 1B
And one very fabulous stray cat turned house cat.
This is Cat (pronounced the same way you pronounce paint in malay).
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Labels: memories
Monday, November 12, 2007
Dear baby,
This song is for you.
a man without a soul
a bird without its wings
a heart without a home
I feel like a knight without a sword
a sky without a sun
because you are the one
I feel like a ship beneath the waves
a child that's lost his way
a door without a key
a face without a name
I feel like a breath without the end
and everyday's the same
since you've gone away
I got to have a reason to wake up in the morning
you used to be the one to put a smile on my face
there are no words that can describe how I miss you
and I miss you
everyday
I'm never gonna leave your side
I'm never gonna leave your side, again
still holding on
I won't let you go
cos' when I'm lying in your arms
I know I'm home
They tell me that a person can lose his mind
living in the pain
recalling times gone by
I'm crying in the rain
You know I've wasted half the time
and I'm on my knees again
till you come to me
I got to have a reason to wake up in the morning
you used to be the one to put a smile on my face
there are no words that can describe how I miss you
and I miss you
everyday
I'm never gonna leave your side
I'm never gonna leave your side, again
still holding on
I won't let you go
I lay my head against your heart
I know I'm home
I'm never gonna leave your side
I'm never gonna leave your side, again
still holding on
I won't let you go
cos' when I'm lying in your arms
I know I'm home.
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Labels: songs I love
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
It's Nice
you're not alone in this story's pages.."
Sometimes when the world feels so cold, it's nice to know someone still watches out for you.
It's also nice to know that on days you feel like nobody cares, someone still cares enough to remind you to drink water, rest more, sleep early and to eat dinner. And that if that person was told that dinner was somehow conveniently yet again 'forgotten', someone will have a lot of answering to do.
It's a nice feeling to have, on days you feel like the stupidest person alive when someone cares enough to boost your confidence by telling you that you're already the best, so it's okay. Especially when you have a memory so short you're on the verge of having amnesia.
It's a nice feeling inside when someone remembers you're the one who sleeps at odd hours and will most definitely oversleep and skip breakfast, and so makes you a sandwich that morning to eat in class.
It's nice when someone cares enough to run from the lecture halls to pass you some Panadols when you're in another faculty because you're having a headache and need some relief. It's even nicer when that person offered to. And reminds you not to drive home alone in your state of pain and tiredness lest you drive into a tree (if you're lucky). And asks to be notified when you have reached home in one piece, whole and unspoiled.
It's nice to know someone like that.
I know, because I do.
love, joyce.
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Labels: better days, ponderings
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Upside Down Girl
inside out, stranger to this feeling,
got no clue what I should do..."
Dear lonely isle,
My time is all topsy turvy these past two weeks.
I sleep at 6-8am in the morning, and wake up at 2-3pm in the afternoon. And practically don't sleep at night.
Result? Panda metamorphosis picking up where it left off.
Still on the journey to eventually become a very cute, cuddly and endangered mammal on the verge of extinction because it was too picky.
Can just imagine mothers telling their children somewhere in the not too off future, "Don't be picky on food, remember the panda? You don't see anymore right? Picky some more la.."
Seems like a very grim and bleak future awaiting me. >.<" Been trying to avoid this unseemly fate by taking a late nap then sleeping through till the next day. Plan failed. the next day, even after waking in the morning, I somehow still end up sleeping at 6.30am.
Everyone keeps asking me to be abit more normal. Believe you, me. I'm really trying.
And it's rather horrifying in a way because it seems to me that I cannot turn my time back to what the general population considers to be normal. Yes, I am turning into a minority. I am becoming one of the abnormal. >.<"
Since I live outside the boundaries of normality at the moment, I guess I have to make the most of it.
Maybe abnormal human-turned-pandas don't go extinct...
I hope.
Love, joyce.
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Labels: daily dires
Fallen
I have sunk so low,
I've messed up, better I should know..."
I like the song Fallen by Sarah McLachlan very much. Above all, it teaches me humility. Somehow, like the song title, I have fallen down many, many times. Must be the two left feet. I keep tripping up myself.
But the most important thing is to get up, is it not?
But getting up is a lot of hard work. Hell, half the time I fall down just trying to get up. But enough is enough.
Had a look a my blog a week ago, couldn't be more ashamed of myself.
Because when provided with nothing, the human need will drive you to go all out of your way to find it. But when presented with luxury, everything you have you take for granted.
Because even though I had to wake up at 6am on Fridays to use the library back last year, I did. And even though I had to starve myself to use it (can't leave my laptop alone in the library to go for lunch, because the line will be too packed to use when I come back. don't worry, I eat maggi on Friday mornings for breakfast), I still did.
Because even though the line was at neck-breaking slow speeds (you break your own neck out of frustration) it would be faster to send an email by snail mail or personal delivery, I still persevered.
Because even though I had to retype all my blog entries at least 5 or 6 times before blogger would get through, I did. And I did it almost every week.
Because even if it meant skipping dinner to use the hour I have to spare in the library to email my baby, I did.
And because now I have internet a few houses away and I don't use it.
Because I can drive to a friend's house to use her internet and don't do it.
So yes, I am just so ashamed of myself.
There's a lot of things that I saw in my former self just two semesters back, that I don't see in myself now. And I couldn't be more ashamed.
and I really wonder where did that girl go?
I tried so hard to kick myself in the head. Wish I could detach my leg and do it. Nothing quite captures the essence of kicking your own head for being such an ass. That belongs at the other end of the body. The confusion has to be corrected.
My To-Change-What-I-Cannot Accept List has just gotten a lot longer this past couple of weeks.
My To-Accept-What-I-Cannot-Change List still has only a single entry. And I think that will be the hardest of all.
But still, better late than never, no?
And better now, than not at all, is it not?
love, joyce.
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Labels: rainclouds
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
There's Just Some Things..
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Baby Came To Visit (again) =)
Baby came to visit :)
He watched me study for my molecular genetics mid-term...
(Yes, T_T stupid mid term when my baby is around T_T)
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Thursday, August 23, 2007
Family day at Tanjung Aru about 2 weeks back.
Yeah, I don't know what happened either, the photographer was more interested in the grass instead of us.
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