Blind Faith

"..when life is a bitter pill to swallow

you've got to hold on to what you believe

believe that the sun will shine tomorrow

and that your saints and sinners bleed.."

Dear lonely isle,

Today someone said I seem to be enjoying the best in life.

I believe I do.

I didn't realize it, but I am.

I know it seems superficial to claim that I'm enjoying the best in life at only 22 years of age, with no work experience, no house or car to my name and with less money than I'd like in my bank. Also, did I mention I wasn't married?

But I believe that the best in life will always change. What may have seemed like the best five years ago, won't be the best now. And what is the best now, probably will have changed five years from now.

But right here, right now, where I'm standing, I'm definitely in love with the view.

And maybe I'm just a fool, because I know that things are going to be tough, but maybe while my brain has arrived at that conclusion, the rest of me hasn't realized it yet.

And like a fool who sets sail to sea without looking at the map in hand, I can already foresee the dark skies and pouring rain in the journey ahead.

Yet, this fool is smiling. Because its a good day.

In fact, the weather has been damn well fine for as long as he can remember.

If this were a movie you'd just know that this ship is going to hit some rocks or shallow reef and end up a beached whale.

But the fool behind the wheel knows that, if it does happen, that's okay.

Sometimes we can only plan where we want to go.

We may very well end up in a completely different place altogether.

The waters of the Ocean of Life oft times have a mind of their own, and they may decide to lead us down a different path.

"..and somehow I know that it'll all turn out

you'll make me work so we can work to work it out.."

So. It's been fine weather so far.

And if we hit some rocks it's okay. Because if the ship sinks we'll just swim.

And if we hit the beach we'll make camp.

And if we drown, well. It's going to be a bigger adventure than I thought.

But an adventure nonetheless.

If the world ends tomorrow, we'll all be in heaven by then.

I used to believe in this, once upon a time.

And then somewhere along the way, I lost my faith.

I must have found it again, when I tripped and fell.

Whatever comes, comes.

Wherever you go, no matter what the weather, always remember to bring your own sunshine.

Someone once told me this. I believe its the best advice for anything you aspire to do.

Right now, you're my sunshine.

I promise you, I'm going to make this work.

"..just don't give up, I'm working this out

please don't give in, I won't let you down.."

Because you said to have faith in you.

So I will.

love, Joyce.

PS: I'm reeking so much of positivity I'm not going to be able to stand myself soon.

Heaven Can Wait

Here's a song

for the nights I think too much

and here's a song

when I imagine us together

here's a song

for when we talk too much and I forget my words

heaven can wait

up high in the sky

it's you and I

heaven can wait

deep down in your eyes

I'm yours tonight

lay your heart next to mine

I feel so alive

tell me you want me to stay, forever

cos heaven can wait

here's a song

for the one who stole my heart

and ran so far

that cupid couldn't catch him

here's a song

for the girl who aims so high

she shot him down

heaven can wait

up high in the sky

it's you and I

heaven can wait

deep down in your eyes

I'm yours tonight

lay your heart next to mine

I feel so alive

tell me you want me to stay, forever

cos heaven can wait

here's a song

for the nights

I drank too much and spilled my words

heaven can wait

up high in the sky

it's you and I

heaven can wait

deep down in your eyes

I'm yours tonight

lay your heart next to mine

I feel so alive

tell me you want me to stay, forever

cos heaven can wait

cos heaven can wait.

We The Kings

Heaven Can Wait

Christmas Medley

"..I'd like to make myself believe,

that planet earth turns slowly,

its hard to say I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep

because my dreams are bursting at the seams.."

Dear lonely isle,

Is it odd to be so very tired at the end of the day but feel completely satisfied?

Is it odd to wake up feeling so tired but at the same time so ready to face the new day?

Is it odd to wake up smiling?

"..got this feeling that you can't fight,

like this city is on fire tonight,

this could really be a good life.."

Is it odd that I'm so happy?

Perhaps its just the start, maybe I'm not worn out yet.

But I should be, yet I don't feel so.

I remember the days I had during my practical, and how different they were, despite the fact that I had more sleep, and lesser working hours, and much lesser workload.

I remember dreading to wake up every morning.

I remember dreading to go to work.

I remember dreading being at work.

While I'm convinced that everything is light and airy because its new, I can't help but to feel that something is different.

I don't know if this is a new perspective that I'm adding to the list of things that define me, or if its the false promise of the shiny new.

Even if it is, it's holding up so far, and I've really never been happier.

What I do know though, is that I'm definitely in way over my head, and paddling further and further away from the shore. Consciously.

"..suddenly I'm in too deep to ever get out,

I gave you my heart and soul to keep,

don't give me your doubts,

I'm in over my head and its scaring me so.."

If this is what being in too deep is, I'm ready to dive head first.

I know its not too late to turn back yet, but I have only eyes for straight ahead.

There's some things I realized that I can't lose.

Now that you've made your bed, you're gonna have to lie in it.

Somehow, even though its a little messier than I'd like, scary because its unpredictable, and so very different and sounds like a mistake, there's really nowhere else I'd rather be right now.

"..and I still can't believe that you came up to me and said,

'I love you'

I love you too.."

Than here in my room, dreaming about you and me.

Love, Joyce.